Love is so hard to deal with. Its frigging complicated because it sweet and sour at the same time. How i miss those days of being single. My mind was so free and i don't have to think anything deeper than what is happening at the moment in front of me. At the same time Love keeps me warm and happy. How much more complicated can it be? Sometimes i feel i am not given the attention that i want. Most of the time it does not reach to my expectations. Its funny when my friends care more than my loved one. Its funny that my friends laugh at my jokes harder than my loved one. Its funny that i spend more and most of my time with my friends than my loved one. Its even funnier that when i'm at my worst my loved one is just too busy to console me. How i wished my heart was numb. How i wished my brain could stop thinking of all this. Thinking of 'He didn't even call me to ask if i was doing ok' or 'He couldn't spend few seconds to show he exist' or even 'All i wanted was a pat on my shoulder not arguments'. How i wished that i was just my old self. I miss my old self. Well, its hard to let yourself go once you are in it. So we just have to deal with it.
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