WorldCup

So the World Cup fever season is finally over. Overall, the results for every match was totally unexpected! Players received red cards for no reason. The jabulani was giving problems and not forgetting the annoying noises of the vuvuzuelas!!..Some goalkeepers had slippery hands. Well in that case not some... only one, English GREEN GREEN Man. Somehow, we can foresee his career after this. What about the samba's and the tango's? It was a great disappointment to see them get defeated though.

By the time the finals came.. i didnt know who to support because i wasnt in favour of both teams who managed to get to the finals. Spain and Holand? now.. now.. now.. who would i choose. Well, before all that... Paul the Octopus made his way into being famous for the WC prediction as he predicted 100% for all games. And then came the great Mani, the parrot.. well he didnt make a 100% prediction.. he lost at the finals.. So, in the finals.. i was not supporting the teams.. i was supporting MANI!!!! and i lost :(.. I seriously didnt like this WC.. It had no thrill at all.. hrrmph~ I hope next WC the samba's will be back with their moves. Oh ya.. before i forget.. i found the love of my football person... martin caceres, an uruguay player.. i loved the way he played.. i loved the way he is. He had the whole package. I will miss WorldCup :(... BUT im waitin for 2014. I have planned to save money and watch at least 1 match live in brasilWC 2014!!.. i hope this dream becomes a reality.. Lets just wait and see :)

Love Hurts.. Sometimes..

Love is so hard to deal with. Its frigging complicated because it sweet and sour at the same time. How i miss those days of being single. My mind was so free and i don't have to think anything deeper than what is happening at the moment in front of me. At the same time Love keeps me warm and happy. How much more complicated can it be? Sometimes i feel i am not given the attention that i want. Most of the time it does not reach to my expectations. Its funny when my friends care more than my loved one. Its funny that my friends laugh at my jokes harder than my loved one. Its funny that i spend more and most of my time with my friends than my loved one. Its even funnier that when i'm at my worst my loved one is just too busy to console me. How i wished my heart was numb. How i wished my brain could stop thinking of all this. Thinking of 'He didn't even call me to ask if i was doing ok' or 'He couldn't spend few seconds to show he exist' or even 'All i wanted was a pat on my shoulder not arguments'. How i wished that i was just my old self. I miss my old self. Well, its hard to let yourself go once you are in it. So we just have to deal with it.

Worries :S

Some people cant control feelings. Some can hide it so well that they don't even realize that there is a missing piece in you. I have this terrible habit of hiding my feelings to an extend that it explodes someday when i am provoked. When this happens, everything.. from sweet turns sour in split seconds because people knew me as this tolerant person who accepts everything or anything without anger, but.. (there is always a but!).. everyone has their limits and so do i.. anyway, as the book says.. let go of your anger and move on. I will be doing just that! Its time for me to change into a better person. But then it got me thinking... What is a better person? Being this so called tolerant person or a person who does not tolerate? How does a person stay in between those two lines? I'm not sure how to do this.. or where do i start the change. All i know is that by burdening your heart with all the worries and thoughts will not bring you anywhere. Sometimes you just got to let it out. LET IT OUT.. by any way of choice.. screaming.. talking to someone you trust.. listening to some head-banging music (emo songs makes you weaker).. or just telling your frustration to the person who is in the picture. The last one is the hardest but it lets the burden out of your chest a 100% but (again everything has a but!) it depends on the individual and how they convey to the situation of u confronting them. Well people are all kinds.. Anyhow, i'l be working hard on my change.. so that i will not burden my heart anymore. Actually, i feel lighter by just blogging it out.

What is my cheese?

People.. People with all sorts of characters. Some seem to be weird at first but then tend to be so normal as you get to know them. The story unfolds..

I walked to the library of my lab while waiting for my lunch mate and i found this book, "Who moved my cheese?". A book that had no awesome cover, looked like as if it was for kids.. with its drawings and all. Well, its just around 100pages with big fonts and it had some pictures of cheese. (pic below)

A perfect story of 4 types of people which had the same goal but behaved and chased after their goal in different perspectives. I believe i am just like Haw. A person with so much fear but tend to overcome it somehow.. yes, it takes more effort and time. Eventually, in that journey of reaching towards the goal.. we learn, we venture in new things, we experience and we create other opportunities. Knowledge never dies, Experience brings you to a new level, Opportunities opens doors to a better life. So what is the goal of my life? What is my Cheese? Career? Traveling? Love? Family? Wealth?

Seriously, i have no idea. But i'm having a thought about it. Maybe i'l spill it a little after i have made my blur journey into a clearer one. Lets say yes to changes!!!